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August 2, 1948
Dear Inner Co-worker Family:
This letter may prove the very death-knell of this work---
frankly, I don't know whether I ought to send it---but I know no
other way. The entire cause to which God has called us, and in
which you and I have labored together as co-workers, is stopped
dead, and finished anyway, UNLESS this letter is productive of
good, and not evil, results.
We can't carry on another week without some sizeable
funds. I am at my wit's end. I know---have learned by cruel
experience, that to send out a letter taking you in my confidence
and sounding only a frustrated note, usually done only harm to the
work---causes co-workers to lose confidence, withdraw support
instead of helping. It seems that only when we can send out joyous
good news, and sound a success note, will most co-workers respond.
That is why I say this letter may sound only the death-knell of
this great work of fifteen years' constant, steady, miraculous
growth, with its trail of rich FRUIT BORNE---thousands converted,
hundreds of thousands brought to much greater light and truth,
millions warned, and having HEARD the true Gospel as a witness,
hundreds healed and brought to TRUST IN GOD who never had such
faith before.
I just don't understand what has happened. I KNOW that
God prepared me even long before He called me for His great work---
that He did call me---that I gave myself to Him, and He has used me
in a way that has astonished me and others---that He started this
work---He started the college, I didn't---He has promised He will
not drop the work HE has begun---He promises to supply our every
need, to deliver us from every trial and difficulty, to never leave
us nor forsake us. I know I am human and full of faults, and I
make mistakes. But God knows that, too, and says He knows we are
dust, and does not deal with us after our iniquities, but according
to His great mercy. He says that even FOOLS who get into trouble
thru their own fault may cry out to Him in their trouble and He
will be merciful and deliver them; He says that when we come to our
wit's end, if we call on Him He hears us and delivers us out of it.
Surely in SOME way God will hear and save this work of His now!
I have had to carry a crushing load. It seems every bad
"break" that could happen has plagued us. I am not ill or sick---
have not been in 25 years, but the terrible ordeal I have had to
live thru has brought me close to a nervous break-down. I got away
for a 28-day fast to fight thru and bring myself back to fit
condition. Now I can see that I was really just "out" on my feet,
in no condition to carry this great work. I am now immeasurably
improved, but still fighting, thru careful diet, systematic
exercise, rigid observance of health rules, to get myself back into
100% efficient tip-top clear-minded fit condition. I was so nearly
"knocked out" I just could not see then, but can now, I was not FIT
for my work---not fit for broadcasts, or for writing. But I am so
MUCH improved, and gaining all the time. I have the PLAIN TRUTH
written and ready for press---BUT NO MONEY so I am helpless. I
believe these articles are the most interesting I ever wrote. I