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MYSTERY OF THE AGES
death. It really
belonged
to him, and now I told him he
could have it!
From then on, this defeated no-good life of mine
was Gon's. I didn't see how it could be worth anything to
him. But it was his to use as his instrument, if he
thought he could use it.
JOY
in
Defeat
This surrender to God-this REPENTANCE-this GIVING
UP of the world, of friends and associates, and of
everything-was the most bitter pill I ever swallowed.
Yet it was the
only
medicine in all my life that ever
brought a healing!
For I actually began to realize that I was finding joy
beyond words to describe in this total defeat. I had
actually found JOY in the study of the Bible-in the
discovery of new TRUTHS, heretofore hidden from my
consciousness. And in surrendering to GoD in complete
repentance, I found unspeakable JOY in accepting JEsus
CHRIST as personal Savior and my present High Priest.
I began to see everything in a new and different
light.
Why
should it have been a difficult and painful
experience to surrender to my Maker and my God?
Why
was it painful to surrender to
obey
God's right ways?
WHY? Now, I came to a new outlook on life.
Somehow I began to realize a NEW fellowship and
friendship had come into my life. I began to be conscious
of a contact and fellowship with Christ, and with God
the Father.
When I read and studied the Bible, God was talking
to
me,
and now I loved to listen! I began to pray, and
knew that in prayer I was talking with God. I was not yet
very well acquainted with God. But one gets to be
better
acquainted with another by constant contact and
continuous conversation.
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