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How the Seven Mysteries Were Revealed
command.
It
meant turning around and going THE WAY
OF GoD-the WAY of his BIBLE-living according
to
every
word in the Bible, instead of according to the ways of
society or the desires of the flesh and of vanity.
It was a matter of which WAY I would travel for the
remainder of my life. I had certainly reached the
CROSSROADS!
But I had been beaten down. God had brought that
about-though I didn't realize it then. Repeated
business reverses, failure after failure, had destroyed
self-confidence. I was broken in spirit. The SELF in me
didn't want to die.
It
wanted to try to get up from
ignominious defeat and try once again to tread the
broad and popular WAY of vanity and of this world.
I had been part of this world. I did not realize, then,
that this was not God's world but Satan's. I came to
realize that accepting God's truth meant being called
out of this world-forsaking this world and its ways, and
even to a great extent my friends and associates in this
world. Giving up this world, its ways, interests,
pleasures, was like dying. And I didn't want to die. I
think one of the greatest tests that everyone whom God
has called faces, is giving up this world and being part of
it. But now I knew that this world's way was WRONG! I
knew its ultimate penalty was DEATH. But I didn't want
to die
now!
It
was truly a battle for LIFE-a life and
death struggle. In the end, I lost that battle, as I had
been losing all worldly battles in recent years.
In final desperation, I threw myself on his mercy.
If
he could use my life, I would give it to
him-not
in a
physical suicide, but as a
living
sacrifice, to use as he
willed. It was worth nothing to me any longer. I
considered that I was only a worthless piece of human
junk not worthy to be cast on the junk pile.
Jesus Christ had bought and paid for my life by his
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